Late Nite Questions for fun

1.If your doctor told you TODAY that you were pregnant, what would you say?
I dont believe you.

2.Do you trust all of your friends?? Yes

3.Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?
Yes,

4.Do you believe that everything happens for a reason? Maybe

5.Can you make a dollar in change right now? yes

6.Which one of your friends do you think would make the best doctor? Marquita, she's taking nursing so..

7.Are you afraid of falling in love? Yes

8.Have you ever been in love? I believe so

9.Is there someone who pops into your mind at random times? Unfortunately

10.Whats your most favorite scar? Ewwww I dont do scars,

11.When was the last time you flew in a plane? never

12.What did the last text message you sent say? Did you use protection?? Where was J??

13.What features do you find most attractive in the preferred sex? A pretty smile

14. I love Vienna____ (Fill in the blank)
Sausage..not really tho

15.What is a goal you would like to accomplish in the near future?
- Losing about 15 lbs, going to the Police academy, moving into my own place && getting a car to graduate, && to add a new addition to my family

16.If you were to wake up from being in a coma for an extended time who would you call?
My daughter.

17. How many kids do you want to have?
2. About 3. Maybe 2 girls and a boy..

18.Would you make a good parent?
I would try my best

19.Where was your default picture taken?
On my webcam at my aunts house

20.Whats your middle name? Chianti

21.Honestly, whats on your mind right now?
Changing K's pamper before she pees in my bed lls

22.If you could go back in time and change something, what would it be?
I'm not sure..

23.Who was or will be the maid of honor/ best man in your wedding?
Prolly my sister

24.What are you wearing right now?
a tshirt and panties.

5.Righty or Lefty?
Righty

26.Best place to eat? XS a sushi bar.

27.Favorite jeans? ae they are actually long enough && they r comfortable

28.Favorite animal? Cheetah

29.Favorite juice? Blueberry Cranberry

30.Have you had the chicken pox? yes.

31.Have you had a sore throat? Yup

32.Ever had a bar fight? not so much

33.Who knows you the best? Ayanna

34.Shoe size? 9 1/2

35.Do you wear contact lenses or glasses? both

36.Ever been in a fight with your pet? No. Ryan is pretty good.

37.Been to California? Not yet

38.Did you buy something today? No

39.Did you get sick today? I think I'm coming down with a cold.

40.Do you miss someone today? Prolly

41.Did you get in a fight with someone today? Maybe a misunderstanding better describes the situation.

42.When is the last time you had a massage? Dude it's been so long. When I was sick with the stomach Virus Alex massaged my back && scalp

43.Last person to lay in your bed? Her*

44.Last person to see you cry? My daughter

45.Who made you cry? hmmm... ....

46. last TV show you watched? Craig Ferguson

47.What are your plans for the weekend? Who knows. But my niece will be getting christened.

48.Who do you think will repost this? Noone

49.Who was the last person you hung out with? Joree

50.If your significant other asked you to marry them TODAY what would you say?
I dont necessarily have one of those.

.....

Anger
towards myself
I knew better
Anger with her
She knew me too well
Confusion, Mistrust
Resentment
ANGER.
Hurt
Stupidity

Wishing I could crawl under a rock
because I know me
and
I knew better

But I did it AGAIN
Shouldve caught myself with the second
&&
third blog.

Where is my strength
my will
my determination

I will love you tomorrow
even though I dont want to
I dont like you right now

You knew what would happen
&&
just like the first time
you didnt care

You see that's what I mean
OUT FOR SELF

I wish I could be like that
and
as much as I try
I cant be..
I dont have it in me

Everytime I go through this...
I lose a valuable piece of myself
my orginality
that I will
NEVER
get back.

I can see me
turning
into stone.
Giving up
People
with their
"People"
make me envious

Grass is
always
Greener on the otherside..
Shit
My grass
aint never been
GREEN.

I aint never had
what I
thought I wanted
what I now
no longer
believe in

Pissed

You follow me..
you read my thoughts
that I put to paper

for what
a better
insight as
to who I
am
....

Well
Im real
[Vulnerable]
true...

But I'm Real
[Emotional]

I mean I'm
REAL
I cry
REAL people tears
I feel
REAL people pain
I feel
REAL people lonely

I'm TIRED
of the games..
everyone has them
call it how I see it
&&
they ask why I'm so mean
Dont wanna open up
Keep the world at a distance
Staying in my little bubble

why??

Because people will always
want what they cant have
&&
I'd rather feel
WANTED, Special...
they like when your unatainable..
UNTOUCHABLE
when you play their
CAT/MOUSE
game..

But my legs are tired...
I cant run anymore....
Imma walk..
at a S.L.O.W.
pace

I can see the end
in the beginning
so Imma take my time
Do it on my terms
&&
I dont NEED you...
I wanted YOU
&&
I DONT KNOW WHY

I say things
in the heat
of the moment
outta anger

I get torrets
so dont mind
if I call you
BITCH!
I just mean Female

You make me
SICK
hold on while I vomit

can you RETURN
that
BIG
chunk of my heart you stole
Send it
in
my
little bit
Of HAPPINESS bag...

you didnt think...
you could keep that
did you??
Well you cant..
IT'S MINE
&&
I dont care if
it doesnt exactly
they way it did
before
you took it
without my permission
I still want it..
even if it doesnt work
anymore...
I wont let it work
for YOU

You've got enough
hearts on your belt
you dont need mine anymore

You brought me to a whole new low
&&
When I think I'm maturing...
I'm really NOT
I'm just being a follower
and
following
behind the rest..
Suspending
my STRONG
WOMAN
I dont need NObody
act...

I hate you sometimes..
&&
If you cared anything
about me..
you wouldnt have gone there
EVER

SELFISH

I wish I never met you..
I wish I never met YOU

Ugh!!!

Thanks for contributing
to my heartbreak
How much do I owe you??

I want out of this LOVE shit...
I dont wanna be weak anymore
I wont allow another to make
me
WEAK

&&
I wont be like this
FOREVER
It'll pass.
&&
I cant wait till
it does.

I dont want you
I dont TRUST you
I dont NEED you
I dont LIKE you

Your accountable for your actions
YOu knew..
Lil Ole me
had NO idea
&&
you wanted it this way
Well
hunnie
it aint happenin.

YOu dont GOT me
Only I GOT me
&&
thats how its gonna be
from now on.

I knew better
I knew
that
I
KNEW better
Guess I
had to find out the hard way..

Dont come back
next month
dont come back
next year

even in a few years..
dont come back tryin to
LOVE me..
because
I wont be back down this road..
oh no
Its just NOT worth it.

I wont want you.
I will remember what I feel
&&
Imma work from
NOW
until
forever
on letting u
GO
&&
Keepin you
GONE

Dont feel
Sorry for me
&&
Matter of fact
DONT feel
NOTHING
for me

I wish so badly

I want to DISAPPEAR

I was doing good...
now look at me

STUPID

You read everything else
well
this
is JUST
4 U

&&
Stop trying to figure me out
Dont FOLLOW me
Dont worry about what
I'm thinking
Just know
it wont be about
U

Good FUCKING NITE*
-Peeved

Fairy Tales && Lullaby's yea sure...

Dont sell yourself short..
I know now better than I've ever known before..that shit is for the birds. It just doesnt exist, the happy endings, the undying love and what not. I dont think there really is a happily ever after. It's just something that they told us to make us want to pick up our hearts and try again. Love is a weak emotion..it makes you vulnerable and I cant stand feeling like that..been down this road one too many times and it's gonna be along time before I go back.

I quit. I give up on optimism, on reluctancy...on believing that everything happens for a reason..shit just happens JUST BECAUSE. I'm tired of writing about love, heartbreak, confusion..but I have no choice..that's just my life. && SOmetimes I wonder when my time comes..will I be please with how I spent my years on earth or will I look back at the many days and nights I shed tears over people, how many years wasted chasing what I thought was love, how many poems were written about this little thing called love. When I look back at it, will it have ever been in my reach.

A friend of mine was telling me of his heartache due to an ex that wronged him and I dont think he ever got over it...I wonder if he spent his final days, his final moments regretting wasting so much precious time instead of just living. Just breathing, no allowing another to get anywhere close to his heart, corrupting his mind..

I cant concentrate..too many thoughts..may spend the night bloggin on and off..Got a few topics in my head..that I could elaborate on..but I dont want to...I'M TIRED OF WRITING ABOUT WHAT I WRITE ABOUT && wish I could go back to the more innocent, no nothing teenage years..where I valued my independence and sought out to see the world. If I could take with me what I know now..Oh how I would be such a different person. I'd know better and this is one road I wouldnt have bothered to travel.

JUST S.E.X.

Continuing to have sex with an ex a BAD habit???
Hummmm good question. We all have been guilty of it, at some point in time. Question!!!: Does having sex with an ex in some way or another HINDER your ability to move on?? Could it be compared to quicksand?? If 1 foot is in..your still gonna go down. Is it purely a sexual thing for one and an emotional connection for the other?? Again with the motive..some people use sex an a way to express themselves and seek out emotional connections they otherwise would not recieve. && If you are having sex with an ex..what, other than the title be revoked, nullifies the committment to eachother?? Is that not an easy way to get all caught up in the limbo..the on and off again mess known as break-up to make-up?? How can you successful heal all wounds and move on if your bound to the bed with your SUPPOSED [IN]signifcant other?? && How do you seperate the past from your future??

A friend of mine hit me up the other day asking if it were right that he continue to sleep with his ex girlfriend even though she now has a boyfriend?? Of course anyone who knows me ..knows I completely disagree with it..but hey..it's a matter of your own personal morals. That got me to thinking...how many people are still sleeping with their exes even when they claim to have moved on from them?? && How can you seperate and sever all emotional ties while remaining sexually connected. && For those continuing these escapades while being involved with someone else..how is that fair to the other person?? && If your goin to obviously put that EX before the PRESENT..you may as well just be with the ex and save the PRESENT the heartache right??

&& If it's JUST {S[e]X} why does it have to be done with the ex..and not with someone new?? Could it mislead either party?? Or do you have to approach the situation as if it were a business deal?? And if it is only just sex...do you kiss them in the mouth?? Say I love you, even if you do?? Do they stay over?? Spend the day?? Because if so...I wouldnt say that would fall under the JUST {S[E]X} category.

Romance has gone to the SHITTER!!!

What ever happen to courtship?? Old fashion dates that took place at the movies or a restaraunt?? What happen to roses and kisses on the cheek?? To phone conversations getting to know one another better?? Picnics at the park and long walks?? When did we let hand holding go?? Nobody hugs anymore unless it's during sex?? WhY?? What happened to phone calls just to say I miss you, letters expressing your feelings, talks about where the future could lead?? Noone cooks for eachother anymore, runs bath water, gives massages, washes eachothers hair, says I love you just because that's how you feel?

I want that OLD thing back..

Looking at how dating and relationships are Now[A]days compared to how things went down back[IN]the day..I get super sad. I'm an old fashioned kinda girl, I like cards, I like flowers, going on dates, sitting and talking for hours about our lives...Now[A]days it's all about the Cookie...what do I have to do to get the Cookie?? Nothing is done out of Sincerity..ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS a motive.

No double dates, No couples games, No Secret getaways...
NOTHING....

The things that made you want, feel & need, that helped you to get back out there and believe, [IN]love NO LONGER EXISTS.

The ABSENCE of your PRESENCE..

Question: Does absence make the heart grow fonder OR is it more of an OUT of SIGHT out of MIND??

Hearing that space is a neccessity to sustain a relationship, and that in your absence the person will begin to miss you.. they then develop a need to see you..I wonder is this true..and if so how long does this take place before the Out of Sight out of mind develop??

Some people only acknowledge you when they are WITH you and when they arent they have no idea you exist. They have no relevance other than to serve whatever purpose needed at that particular time.

Is space always a good thing?? What does it mean to MISS someone??
Guess it all depends on the person and the circumstances surrounding the situation.

LiEs LieS LIES!

One thing I can not stand---> is to be LIED to. I'm a truth seeker, always on the mission to collect facts, it's just my nature. && Because of such nature I have a 6 sense, the ability to be able to detect a lie. What makes it even worst is when they can look you in the eye and lie...that is the ULTIMATE betrayal. I suck at lying that why it's something I just dont do EVER! I feel like if a person will LIE to you ONCE they will lie to you a thousand times. If you dont have trust..you have nothing.

Omission -to withhold information which could change the outcome in a way that would negatively affect you [in other words:FOR PERSONAL GAIN]. OMISSION IS BETRAYAL. Point blank. Failure to state ALL facts leads me to believe your intent is to in some way, shape, or form decieve me and for that I Revoke my trust for you to NEVER gain it back.

Honesty is EVERYTHING. Whats done in the DARK always alWAys ALWAYS comes to light. In it's due time. && To pride yourself in successfully decieving someone only insults yourself and shows your lack of INTERGRITY.