In repsonse to your BLOG:

Your WROTE:ok shes dogged&&disrespected me enough. i feel its time to stack my claim to all these meaningless people she decideds to air my shit out wit. Yes i asked for kennedy. I wanted My daughter before you knew what she was in your own belly. An yes I started having sex wit you again for all the wrong reasons. But in no way shape or form have i lied to you in any way Lee. You made a choice. I didnt get you drunk and in the heat of the nite try to ravege. I asked you sober and thinkin clear as day did you want to have sex wit me. YOu agreeded i didnt use any trickery. An as far as my daughter and my family are concerned, i have been there beside you since the day that lil girl came home so has my family. im sorry i dont have the resraints that your baby daddy has cause of his seman. When i asked you to be in her life i hoped i would be enough to safice for that jack ass not being around. dont ever try say im not a good partner or parent to you wit k. i take care of her. When i cant get her i dont leave you waiting, i call explain shit. You make it seem like i stand my daughter up on a regular basis, i dont. i call n check on her everyday even when were beefing. even with all the drama and extra bullshit ive gotta put up wit from u. Im there when she sick and in need and when shes fine and ready to play. i know My child. Im not no holiday send some money parent. But do i get any fucking credit. i dont want praise give that to god. i just want your dirty asss mouth to admit it. YOu want to tell this world im not worth a pot to piss in. why dont you tell them about before she got here or even thought of. back to topic
this is what it all comes down to :HEr name is mari.....
this is the reason my baby mother hates my guts. She wants to admit to her that i was sexing wit mari while i was sexing wit her. whatever. you people understand complicated. i n mari have been on again off again for 3 years. however i wasnt sexing them at the same time. i wish.
Bm thinks i was top secrertly seeing mari while we were seeing if a relationship between us would work, needless to say it didnt. and immidetly after we decided it wouldnt work i went back to seeing mari. the shit so complex. but plain n simple i wasnt sexing them both. what happens i a mari briefly are off soooo i asked my bm could we sex with no explaintion of why. at first she said no then a couple days later she said yes. so we sexed as usual wit the baby in the crib sleep. that was that. or so I thought. so now bm talking like you hurt me you lied to me you mislead me. i dont think any of this is true. I think cause we had sex her feeling flared up. an tho i dont know what she expected this is how it is. so now im every name in the book, she dont want to talk. ok. n to add to the problems of other people getting invovled in all my business tellin her shit that aint really got nutting to wit her cause they assume shit. so now ive aired out my own shit now im going to change my world


My response:
Chantel do as you please and tell yourself what you want. I'm tired of being your back up plan, your second or whatever else you want to call it. If you want to be with that ran down, mustashe having, possibly std carrying whore who's fucked half the lesbian community, dated a friend of yours, and used you as her second while she has had girlfriends without admitting it to you until it was too late, FINE. Go be with that bitch. I could give a fuck less. But you got the game fucked up if you think you can choose her over me then come lay in my fuckin bed you tired piece of shit. I'm done going back and fucking fourth with you lying ass. Now all of a sudden ya'll been on and off for 3 years but outta the five years we been friends I didnt hear of the bitch till LAST fuckin year. && when I asked about her you said it was a fuckin thing and that was it. That she played the shit outta you you fuckin LAME. You both deserve eachother. Fuck outta my goddamn face you BITCH! && while your at it tell that good for nothing tramp bitch to give you a fuckin baby so you can get the fuck outta my face. How the fuck do you like me now???? Stay away...far the fuck AWAY from me. Good FUCKIN bye.

Dont call my phone, dont come to my house. I will get an order out against you. && I'll prolly look into it during my spring break. WHORE!

So Long.

After giving it alot of thought and shedding more tears than I would have liked to, I've decided to say Goodbye for good. I've come to a point in my life...like a crossroad, should I stay or should I go?? And I'm leaving. Its been heavy on my mind and I have been struggling with whether or not I would be able to follow through because of how many years we have backing us, but I have to do whats best for me. Stay true to my world however much you may not like it. I have to let you go completely. I no longer wish you into my world your access is not longer granted in my life. Your not welcome anymore. It's not an easy decision for me to make but its one I have to stick to. I know what it is and it will never be how you want it so I think we just need to both accept the inevitable and part ways. I mean it, as sure is the sky is grey I mean it. I dont know how it will be possible with Kennedy involved, but should you choose to stay involved in her life know that doesnt not mean your presence is welcomed in mine. We will have to figure something out. Wouldnt want you to feel trapped. But I cant do it and refuse to try the same way you did. I see the end in the beginning and it's not in your favor. Moving on with my life without you. I will be deleting your my myspace pages, as well as making this blog private. You have the house number, my cell will be changing and you will NOT be notified. If the matter has nothing to do with Kennedy I dont expect to see you or hear from you at all. I wish you well, our season has come and gone. Goodbye.

SUPER MEGA BITCH ALERT!

It's about damn time, I have put up with way too much shit from everybody, cared more about how others felt when they could give TWO count them TWO fucks about how I feel. I'm DONE with it. So Imma air everything out...RIGHT here..RIGHT fucking NOW.

I use you?? FOR WHAT? I dont ask you to do shit, get me shit or anything like that. You dont buy me anything. Havent paid my bill in like forever so tell me how the fuck I use you?? Tell me your not talking about Kennedy. THe daughter you claim as yours...I dont even call that often and I only ask for what she needs. If that is using you I dont know what to day. Carry it like that if you want. Taking it out on K. I wont call about shit in regards to her.

NO she will NOT be getting blessed on Sat. It was not discussed with me before hand and I dont see the point? For what. I'm over all this seperation of people. Either K will be accepted with all that she comes with or I dont need her acceptance at all. I'm not having 3 seperate ceremonies. I postponed her christianing for YOUR mother because I was asked to, changed the date, time and location, sent out the invites only for the shit to be cancelled over something so fucking petty as to whould be in attendance. Shit is so fuckin selfish. Has anyone taken the time to think of what I am supposed to say to my fuckin family to explain why it's cancelled or what bullshit Imma have to go through explaining that shit to his family. NO. Because as long as YOU get what the fuck you want it's cool. How the fuck can you ruin something that is supposed to be a good thing, something where the intentions are PURE and allow peoples selfish wants and needs to interfere with her baby dedication. It's fucking all or nothing. Not to mention I dont appreciate the fact that YOUR mother has made not one attempt to contact me in regards to the situation since I sent the list of names, The situation could have been addressed between she and I but instead she hasnt communicated with me since. All of it is fucking bullshit and I'm over it.

Because you dont like what I have to say or my attitude you take it out on Kennedy. How immature is that. Either your in her life or your not. Your NOT here for me at all so I dont see how my attitude affects you. You dont have to sit in my face, we dont have to communicate other than when it has to do with her so NOT picking her up yestedday when you said you were going to falls back into the pattern we went throught the first couple times we were beefing. You are able to spereate love from sex but you cant seperate my attitude from your willingness to be in her life?? How backwards is that shit. You wouldnt even have this problem if you were being real and fuckin honest from the goddamn jump. But you werent and your not getting away with it. Just the other day you all talking about how you dont want to be with me right now cause you want to get ya life together..blah blah blah...bullshit. You dont want and wasnt ever gonna be with me and you told P and ya mom && whoever else but me. You fuckin LIAR. You bring all the extra drama on yourself and get mad when someone calls you out on it.

I'm tired of trying to make her happy, tired of trying to please her and do things her way when it benefits me none. Im tired of having such fake and phoneyness in my life and in Kennedy's life as well as around my family. You aitn worth a pot to piss in. Keep all the extra shit to yourself. It's time to Respect me because I'm through with it, dont know how to address me in a manner that is appropriate...shut your mouth and dont talk to me. I'm DONE! Shit is about to get REAL fuckin ugly. Attitude on fuckin MAX! Done being everyones fucking doormat.
I'm DONE. && If you aint like me before you sure as hell aint gonna like me NOW.




Sincerely-
NOT GIVING A FUCK*

For Fun && Very true

December

Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

Truer words have never been spoken....

SELFISH IMPATIENT N A LIL INSECURE I Make Mistakes Im Out of Control @ Times Hard 2 Handle, If U Cant Handle Me @ My Worst Thn U Sure As HELL Dnt Dsrv @ my best
-Annonymous

The games people play

In my last blog I was ill-tempered and outrageous, I want to apologize for the way it came out but I dont apologize for the message I was trying to get across. I just feel like if your sleeping with someone and they decide they are going to start talking to someone else you should be made aware of if and allowed to decide whether you want to remain in the same situation. I have a strong fear of diseases and I dont wish to deal with anyone who could possibly be kissing, sucking or fucking someone else. Lemme tell you how trust and honesty go hand in hand in what is supposed to be an Open situation. I dont really know what to call it but ok here: If you decide we are gonna continue to have sex with me I think the least you can do/we can do is to be honest and open about whats going on between the both of us. It's a situation where should we decide to deal with other people neither parties can get mad and I respect that..but when you dont come to me and tell me that your interested in, and pursing someone while your laying in my bed and kissing my lips and fucking me..there is a problem. I should NOT have to find out from anyone else...Why must I always be the goddamn last to know shit. && for the simple fact that it wasnt brought to my attention from jump, I refuse to believe shit you have to say after the fact. I'm supposed to believe you havent been having sex with her?? Yea right. Since when? It aint like ya'll aint had sex before...&& ya'll wasnt in a relationship fuck is stopping you now?? Right. && if you werent even gonna tell me u were dealing with her like that..why should I believe that you would come to me and tell me you are having sex with someone else? If you call yourself being open and honest you shouldnt have to hide shit. && If it's not that serious then you wouldve volunteered the information. All in all it's a lack of respect for me that made you feel as though you have done NO wrong in this situation and that's sad. Your the ONLY person who thinks it's ok and it's not. Pretty pathetic. How the fuck am I supposed to believe you wont bring her around my daughter?? That ya'll not sharing a bed with Kennedy in it?? When you didnt have the decency to keep me informed in the first place. I cant believe shit you say. To me your just making it worst. Omission is betrayal. Not saying the whole truth or volunteering the whole story is lying. I know too many liars and up until now you fooled the shit outta me. Your just like them, no better.

I dont have to be nice to anyone. You hurt me and keep on hurting me knowing that you are HURTING me and expect me to be nice to you. && Claim that you dont mean to but you keep on doing it?? Makes no sense. A contridiction. You dont owe me anything..but I give you the truth..I give you respect and loyalty and all I have ever asked for in our friendship and whatever else has taken place was for the reciprocation and you have failed over and over to give it to me. No more words are left. My loyalty is fading with the quickness, my heart is becoming hardened in regards to you with repeated disappointments and poor excuses of how your not like everyone else. When does COMMON sense enter YOUR picture?? You cant possible be that dumb. U must like the shit outta drama but I spent the last two years trying my best to stay away from it and now dealing with u I'm once again all up in the mix. Never once a heartfelt apology for anything. I cant believe you dont think you owe me that...outta all the shit we done been through over the last 7 almost 8 months...u dont feel responsible for anything?? That's fine. But your burning your bridges for lack of a better word and when she fucks you over and shit dont work out I wont be waiting in the wings for you. So dont look for me. I'm tired of playing this game and I'm over you pretending your innocent and that I brought it all on myself. The same way I was aware of what I was getting myself into although my expectations may differ from yours, you, also, were well aware of the type of person I am and you knew what to expect. You have been around LONG enough to know. Definately feeling some kind of way. And Betrayal is only the beginning of what I feel. Always had your best interest at heart. Always. Feed me lies about how you dont want to bring blah blah blah in my life and how you want to get your shit together...blah blah blah instead of just saying what you really feel..going hard and keeping it 100 and saying YOU JUST DIDNT WANT ME FROM THE BEGINNING. You wouldve saved yourself alot of headaches.

The FOOL yet AGAIN.

F'n whore! Yo I swear I dont know how I've wronged anyone to keep getting fed all the bullshit I have but I'm done with it. Shorty a liar by omission. Bitch straight feelin herself mad heavy. You got that. Do you lil mama real talk. Lil bitch. Excuse me ya'll but I'm on fuckin FIRE right now. I cant stand people who are dishonest. Liars by not telling the WHOLE fuckin truth..lil bitch had the nerve. I appreciate what you've done for K and all but FUCK you wit a SICK DICK! Dont come around here NO TIME soon. I promised I will LAY HANDS ON U something TERRIBLE. I dont even wanna see ya face till Weds when you come get K. That's if I let u, fuckin slut. Twice tho?? Really?? My friend right?? U dont even know what 100 really is. A conscious?? Fuck ass no you dont possess one of those. Omission TRICK. You tell only the parts that fit into your idea of what the STORY should be. I wanna beat ur body all the rage I feel right now. OUT for SELF aint the word. Everyday I look at you mad different then I did before. Dont feel bad about it, why'd you FAIL to mention it?? I once again look like the fuckin fool...I shouldve known when you referred to me as "the girl." I will punch u in the fuckin mouth. Ya'll not hearing me right now. Ya'll not seeing shit how I see it. Only bitch who think she got game and forever stay caught the fuck up. Some messy shit alawys. But Imma put it to u like this...YOUR NOT WELCOMED IN MY HOUSE. YOUR NOT WELCOMED AROUND MY FAMILY. YOUR JUST BARELY WELCOMED IN KENNEDY'S LIFE. Dont really think I should expose her to such TRASH! Dont come around here till weds, if u attempt to come around or contact me anytime before weds I promise not only will I lay hands on you, I will have you arrested && get a restraining order. Think I'm playing TRY ME!. You fuckin BITCH.