I want my own.

I'm tired of being depressed. I want my own...my very own. I want my own person, my own love...my own family. I want something meant for me. I'm tired of getting everybody else's even when I'm unaware anyone else exists. I dont want left over love...the reminents of a love that was given to someone else..the bottom of the barrel, the scraps.. I dont want a half ass family...the family that only exist in my mind..because at the end of the day...EVERYBODY goes home and it's just she and I. I think I deserve to be happy. ..all the time..not just when someone decides I should be. I just want my own. I cant share anymore...i dont want to share anymore..with anyone. I dont want to just be the mother of someone's child, I want to be a wife, I want to be of some importance, I want to MATTER to someone..I want she and I to be someone's world..instead of my world co-existing with their world with someone else. Tired of NEVER making ANYONE'S cut.